Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Suicide note to Mr. Gross
On August 11, 2000 Jonathan was planning his suicide. He wrote his notes - two to the landlord, one to me, and one to his family in Netanya.
I knew this was coming and I was doing everything I could to keep him alive. One of the things I told him was that if he killed himself I wanted nothing to do with him. I told him he shouldn't pin my telephone number on his dead body. I told him to write down the telephone number in Netanya and let them deal with it. I begged him not to kill himself. I begged him to give me a goodbye call. I was advised by the Suicide hotline to ask him to promise to say goodbye to me. This way, I might be able to stop it. To call the police when I got the goodbye call. Joni promised he would call. Joni lied.
On June 14, 2001 Joni called his brother, Miki, in Netanya, to say goodbye. Miki called me. By the time the police arrived it was too late.
This note was found July 2001 in a bag filled with underwear, in his apartment. Joni planned his suicide and then told Mordechai his plan. Then he agreed to accept Mordechai's help and moved into Mordechai's apartment. He lived there for 10 months before he actually killed himself. This note was not tacked to him, it is for the previous landlord. Notice that although he promised to leave me out of it, he leaves my phone number and my name and address and cell phone number (a part I blocked out).
This note says:
8/11/2000
To Miss and Mr Gross
I'm am sorry about what
you see. Please call my cousin
in Long Island (phone #) for
collecting my stuff. I have enjoyed
your hospitality. it's nothing personal.
Call (my phone number and address)
ask for Deborah
